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Saturday, 30 May 2009

  • Nope, no beginning.

    I was tired of waiting.  After he hadn't been touching me anymore like the first couple days, I felt something was changing.  I just asked him if something had changed, and he said he thinks it'd just be easier if we were friends.  He's probably right, considering we're in an organization together, but it still sucks.

    Oh well, onward with life.

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

  • Maybe it's a beginning?

    So, I spent an evening with B last night.  I drove out to his place and we went to see the new Terminator movie, which was fun.  Afterward he told me this story about a house that used to be in the neighborhood that had a pretty rich history, and showed me the site.  Then we went to Whataburger and ate back at his place while watching Reno 911.  It was a fun evening.

    I've always been under the impression that if a guy pays for the movie and the food before or after, it's considered a date.  During the whole time, he never tried to cuddle or put his arm around me or fool around, but it was totally fine.  It didn't feel awkward or wrong not to touch, so that's pretty great.

    It also wasn't like he didn't want to touch me or anything...  it was just normal.  Just relaxing.  As soon as we fell into bed his arm was around me, and it was just comfortable..

    He chatted with me today about a few things, and suggested we'd see each other again soon, so I'm pretty content with how things are going thus far.

Monday, 25 May 2009

  • Weekend

    My weekend was pretty fun.  Still, as soon as it was over and everyone went home, I felt so alone.  B, the guy I am kinda liking, was talking to me all last night, but today I texted him to see what he was doing and he said "sleeping", then never wrote back.  That's fine.

    I'm having a problem remembering to take my pills for depression, which I need to be taking every day.  I wish there were a pill I could take once a week for this...  This is why I switched from the birth control pill to the NuvaRing.  Now I don't have to worry about forgetting that...  But even worse, I was thinking that I could go without it, or start taking a lower dose...  But every day that I forget to take it, I end up wanting to cry and feel awful and alone.

    All I wanted last night was someone's arms around me, even though that wouldn't solve everything in the world.  It would've solved a few things for the time being.

Thursday, 21 May 2009

  • A little reflecting...

    I always tend to sit alone at night and wonder why I'm sitting alone at night.  I want a guy ... Ha, I've already made this blog before... about what I want in a guy.

    I texted B earlier this week to see if he wanted to hang out, but he said he was visiting home.  He seemed genuinely sorry that he couldn't hang out the next day, which makes me a little hopeful.  We'll see. 

    I'm happy to have plans for this weekend...  Tomorrow during the day I may do a few walk-bys to apply for some jobs, then I'll work on my painting.  Tomorrow evening I should be hanging out with my step-sister, then driving out to the river to spend the night.  The next morning I have plans to float..  and I guess hang out for most of the day.

    I've been having the hardest time finding a job lately, which really stinks.  It's not that I actually need a job, but my step-dad requires it...  That's fine, I understand it will look well on the resume.  However, it's really hard to find a job from 3.5 to 4 hours away.  Now that I'm here, I've been going out and applying almost every day.

    However, this isn't a job website, and I have nothing new from the dating world to report, so I'll stop here.

    If you'd like, though, you can view my last entry, where I posed a question that I'm really interested in hearing some input about.  Thanks!

Monday, 18 May 2009

  • Yet again, haven't updated recently

    So it's been since February 17th.

    I talked about C - he and I dated for almost three months, then he decided that he didn't want to be with me.  He thought I was too type A for his type B personality, but of course he gave me some kind of BS about not having "fixed" himself after his relationship ending last November.

    I started talking to a guy, B, who lives near my mom.  I just moved back from school, so we'll see how it goes.  He came out to visit the first night I was near here, which was nice of him, considering he'd never met my family and it was just me and my family.  He stayed until about 12:30 or so.  We had a fun time.  I was concerned that he was too interested in sex rather than a relationship...  We talked about it and I found that we're on the same page - both of us want us to have more investment in each other before we do any kind of sex (oral, etc).  However, messing around by touching seems to be okay.

    I'm having a bit of a conflict within myself - is it okay to touch and play without sex and not feel like I'm being slutty, if he feels the same way?  What is your view on this, if you're a guy?

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