So, I've been working as a student assistant at my university this semester, and I work with a teacher and her students, but I get to interact with the students.  This past week a student in the class who is older than me by three years asked me out to lunch.  We'd been kind of flirting for the whole semester and I was hoping he'd ask me out before the end of it, but thought he wouldn't since I worked in the class.  Lunch was nice and we seem to have a lot in common with mannerisms and how we think about things.

He's been contacting me and asking me to hang out a lot, which is really nice.  He seems to genuinely like me, and this just feels right - more right than other boys have.  I feel kind of bad, though, because I made plans to hang out with a guy Friday night, even though this new guy really wants to hang out with me that night.  I'm not going to change the plans for him, even though I know Friday-night guy isn't going to turn into anything.  I don't even know that he'll actually show, though he seems to be serious about showing up.

It's like everyone says - as soon as you stop looking opportunities start popping up or they start coming to you!  I really hope this works out, but I say that in every post =P  I'll keep you updated.

I was tired of waiting.  After he hadn't been touching me anymore like the first couple days, I felt something was changing.  I just asked him if something had changed, and he said he thinks it'd just be easier if we were friends.  He's probably right, considering we're in an organization together, but it still sucks.

Oh well, onward with life.

My weekend was pretty fun.  Still, as soon as it was over and everyone went home, I felt so alone.  B, the guy I am kinda liking, was talking to me all last night, but today I texted him to see what he was doing and he said "sleeping", then never wrote back.  That's fine.

I'm having a problem remembering to take my pills for depression, which I need to be taking every day.  I wish there were a pill I could take once a week for this...  This is why I switched from the birth control pill to the NuvaRing.  Now I don't have to worry about forgetting that...  But even worse, I was thinking that I could go without it, or start taking a lower dose...  But every day that I forget to take it, I end up wanting to cry and feel awful and alone.

All I wanted last night was someone's arms around me, even though that wouldn't solve everything in the world.  It would've solved a few things for the time being.